That is now the new nickname for Sleepy Bug! Mwahaha. Ha.
Things have been preeeeeetty much amazing lately (barring the occasional really annoying homework assignment). Gigglypuff and I have been spending as much time together as we can, we are officially dating (!) as of 10/04, and I just met her parents this weekend!
"We click so hard" seems to be the phrase of the day, and it is proven more and more true every day. I didn't know I could ever find such a seemingly perfect match. There is simply nothing to put on the "cons" side of a pros and cons list, if I were to make one.
I expected myself to write more tonight, but my eyes ain't stayin open so well, sooooo I gotta go to the beds. I think I finished all my homework....bahaha, a song called "Homework" just came on in the music radio app I'm listening to! Funnay stuff.
TTFN folks!
Monday, October 14, 2013
Monday, September 23, 2013
Wellllllll Friday night....
Some of you reading might already have at least a little bit of an idea what happened on Friday night, and if so, good for you! Haha. I'm not gonna go into too much detail, but....Friiiiiiday was awwwwwesome! ^_^
So let's see...basically, a girl asked me out this past week. Humm, I think I'll call her Sleepy Bug. Hehe. No one will understand that at all except for me. Maybe just Sleepy, for short. But so this came as a total surprise to me, just way out of left field. I had to think about it for a day or so, but I pretty quickly decided that it was worth it to at least just go on a date with her and see how things went. Sooo we basically instantly started talking/texting frequently, and started getting to know each other that way. We set Friday as our date night.
I am definitely formatting this far too similarly to a journal entry. These details aren't necessary. If you want details, ask me! So, had our date on Friday, which consisted of the following things: Elysium movie, Dairy Queen, YouTube videos, 3 hour walk, and lots of talking, in that order. It became pretty clear pretty quickly that things clicked between us, so, we are definitely moving forward from this point!
Exciting times :) And once again, proof that the best things for me always seem to come when/where I least expect them!
TTFN!
So let's see...basically, a girl asked me out this past week. Humm, I think I'll call her Sleepy Bug. Hehe. No one will understand that at all except for me. Maybe just Sleepy, for short. But so this came as a total surprise to me, just way out of left field. I had to think about it for a day or so, but I pretty quickly decided that it was worth it to at least just go on a date with her and see how things went. Sooo we basically instantly started talking/texting frequently, and started getting to know each other that way. We set Friday as our date night.
I am definitely formatting this far too similarly to a journal entry. These details aren't necessary. If you want details, ask me! So, had our date on Friday, which consisted of the following things: Elysium movie, Dairy Queen, YouTube videos, 3 hour walk, and lots of talking, in that order. It became pretty clear pretty quickly that things clicked between us, so, we are definitely moving forward from this point!
Exciting times :) And once again, proof that the best things for me always seem to come when/where I least expect them!
TTFN!
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Spontaneous Connections
I planned to write this post much much earlier today (or yesterday, if you're counting the hours) with that title, and I am pretty sure I had a good plan laid out in my head for what I would say. Then BAM, struck in the brain by a new thing...Hahaha, I'm sure that sounded wonderful. I mean mentally.
I'll explain the previous point of the title first. I've realized today that I think spontaneous connections are extremely important in my life. And by spontaneous connections, I mean making a new connection with a person, be it on a friend level, acquaintance level, or something else. In this particular instance I am mostly specifically referring to suddenly becoming friends with people I have known for a while but was never friends with before. This has happened quite a few times in the past few months. I've made at least three new friends, ranging from pretty good to excellent. All of them are people I have basically been in school with for 4 years, but for some reason, until now (ish), I never really desired to be friends with them.
The reason this is important is because I think that every time this happens, it is marking a significant change within my mental state, or outlook on life. Some may argue that it is entirely circumstantial, that I still wouldn't be friends with those people had not the exact right combination of events occurred; however, I would argue that, while perhaps it was a specially specific combination of events that led to new friendship, those events couldn't have happened that way had I not had a change occur within me. I haven't exactly figured out what really might be changing, but it just feels right to me, that this is the explanation. How else could I "know of" someone for 4 years, be a student/colleague with them, and literally almost never speak to them any more than in passing, and then suddenly find myself becoming good friends with them, and really enjoying that friendship? I'm not totally sure. It could be something else. But I have liked pondering this thought today. I like entertaining the thought that some small parts of me have changed in such a way that it allows me to make new friends suddenly, out of the blue.
Somewhat related, and the cause of the aforementioned "BAM," is what just happened to me a few hours ago. Hmm....I won't go into details for now. But I had a very unexpected exchange of words with a completely unexpected person. It could be the start of a spontaneous connection. If that is the case, this could lead on to things I was not expecting from that direction at all. This idea, I like! I really really do enjoy having life just slap me in the face and say, "HEY! Wake up, bozo, it's over here, not over there."
I still need to think a lot about what I'm going to do, but suffice to say, my life is very interesting right now! :) I am mostly hoping I don't get stuck on one of the conflicts on which I'm expecting to get stuck. Because that won't be a fun hurdle.
Any-Who.....OMG Doctor Who 50th is in...70 days! SO EXCITED.
TTFN folks!!
I'll explain the previous point of the title first. I've realized today that I think spontaneous connections are extremely important in my life. And by spontaneous connections, I mean making a new connection with a person, be it on a friend level, acquaintance level, or something else. In this particular instance I am mostly specifically referring to suddenly becoming friends with people I have known for a while but was never friends with before. This has happened quite a few times in the past few months. I've made at least three new friends, ranging from pretty good to excellent. All of them are people I have basically been in school with for 4 years, but for some reason, until now (ish), I never really desired to be friends with them.
The reason this is important is because I think that every time this happens, it is marking a significant change within my mental state, or outlook on life. Some may argue that it is entirely circumstantial, that I still wouldn't be friends with those people had not the exact right combination of events occurred; however, I would argue that, while perhaps it was a specially specific combination of events that led to new friendship, those events couldn't have happened that way had I not had a change occur within me. I haven't exactly figured out what really might be changing, but it just feels right to me, that this is the explanation. How else could I "know of" someone for 4 years, be a student/colleague with them, and literally almost never speak to them any more than in passing, and then suddenly find myself becoming good friends with them, and really enjoying that friendship? I'm not totally sure. It could be something else. But I have liked pondering this thought today. I like entertaining the thought that some small parts of me have changed in such a way that it allows me to make new friends suddenly, out of the blue.
Somewhat related, and the cause of the aforementioned "BAM," is what just happened to me a few hours ago. Hmm....I won't go into details for now. But I had a very unexpected exchange of words with a completely unexpected person. It could be the start of a spontaneous connection. If that is the case, this could lead on to things I was not expecting from that direction at all. This idea, I like! I really really do enjoy having life just slap me in the face and say, "HEY! Wake up, bozo, it's over here, not over there."
I still need to think a lot about what I'm going to do, but suffice to say, my life is very interesting right now! :) I am mostly hoping I don't get stuck on one of the conflicts on which I'm expecting to get stuck. Because that won't be a fun hurdle.
Any-Who.....OMG Doctor Who 50th is in...70 days! SO EXCITED.
TTFN folks!!
Saturday, June 22, 2013
The End of the World
They said the world was going to end. They said it was written in ancient stone, that it was God's will. The Coming Apocalypse...People talked. They worried. People argued. People spent all their money stocking up on supplies in case they needed to survive in their homes...or, in other cases, people spent all their money on extravagant luxuries because they knew they didn't have long to live. Many doubted it. Many believed it.
They said it would all end on December 21st, 2012. They were wrong.
My world had already ended, when that "apocalypse" came and went with absolutely no consequence.
She took my world away from me the night before Thanksgiving. Well, that's not really fair, if I'm being honest. I guess I am just as much to blame. But everything came down around me. I did manage to come back from it quite a bit more quickly than I would've expected, but the more heavily-hitting repercussions have stayed with me up to and including today, boiling just beneath the surface most of the time.
It's been difficult, and it's been sad. But do you wanna know what else it's been?
It's been enlightening. As tough as it is to truly admit that to myself, I can live a little more easily knowing that I've learned long-lasting lessons, I've grown tremendously as a person, and I've been making myself better. Perhaps I'm not completely through with the healing process yet, or even as far along as I would like to think I am, but that's alright.
My world with her ended, but I'm going to be ok--no, I'm going to be fantastic. I am going to be fantastic, because I am building my own world again. I'm making my own life, my own friends, my own goals, and my own memories.
The world might be ending every single day, for all of us, or for each of us individually. But we can rebuild. I believe that. I hope you do too.
They said it would all end on December 21st, 2012. They were wrong.
My world had already ended, when that "apocalypse" came and went with absolutely no consequence.
She took my world away from me the night before Thanksgiving. Well, that's not really fair, if I'm being honest. I guess I am just as much to blame. But everything came down around me. I did manage to come back from it quite a bit more quickly than I would've expected, but the more heavily-hitting repercussions have stayed with me up to and including today, boiling just beneath the surface most of the time.
It's been difficult, and it's been sad. But do you wanna know what else it's been?
It's been enlightening. As tough as it is to truly admit that to myself, I can live a little more easily knowing that I've learned long-lasting lessons, I've grown tremendously as a person, and I've been making myself better. Perhaps I'm not completely through with the healing process yet, or even as far along as I would like to think I am, but that's alright.
My world with her ended, but I'm going to be ok--no, I'm going to be fantastic. I am going to be fantastic, because I am building my own world again. I'm making my own life, my own friends, my own goals, and my own memories.
The world might be ending every single day, for all of us, or for each of us individually. But we can rebuild. I believe that. I hope you do too.
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Sugarcoated
I sort of feel like that's what my life is, right now. I've had a really easy semester, I almost 100% have a high-paying job secured for the summer, I am taking it easy, basically....
But there's all this other-ness happening beneath the surface.
Oh....Speaking of those words...... Beneath the Surface (Youtube) or Beneath the Surface (Spotify) if you prefer that. That song is....beautiful. Utterly. But it makes me cry. I'm not ready to share the reason why with the whole world at this point, but know that it means a great deal of very deep things to me. However, that's not quite related to this idea of my life being sugarcoated. Just an aside.
If you didn't already assume, by this point in this post, things with Bee ended up flipping around suddenly and unexpectedly on me, so, now we're just friends, because she doesn't feel ready to have a relationship with anyone. Sound familiar? :/
I don't like being bitter. Sometimes I say or do things and immediately realize Wow, I'm acting incredibly bitter right now. That's a shitty attitude. I should lighten up a bit. But then, I really do feel that way, to some extent, so I can't really bring myself to pretend to feel otherwise. Sometimes I do lighten up, and act happy and go along with whatever's happening. But I usually am able to do that by latching on to superficial pleasures that last only a fleeting few moments of time, and have no real meaning to me personally.
So here's an example. I went to a party tonight, for a friend's birthday and sort of for the end of the semester as well. It was a blast. I won at Twister, got to see a lot of people in one place that I don't normally see all together, I think I successfully mingled with all the crowds at some point or another. That felt good. But then after leaving it's like my whole body and soul just experience a general....wumph, downward. Because I realize, although I genuinely had fun and everything, it was still only distracting my mind from my inner turmoils, not solving anything.
I suppose I should clarify that, I am not implying that my friends (who were at that party) do not mean anything to me. I love my friends. I always feel surprised by how much more I realize how amazing they are, at each segment of my life. Shrink was there and although thoroughly inebriated, I think she could instantly tell that there was something lurking behind my smile and outer happiness, because when I was leaving she made sure to tell me she is always there to talk if I need it. For some reason, at that moment, it really meant a lot to me for her to say that.
This has been a little bit all over the place. I have been so incredibly scatterbrained lately. I can't really pinpoint the exact cause of why, though I expect that it is most likely a result of all the things happening in my life, not just one thing. Like, for the past 2 weeks, (sort of excluding the weekend....but not really) I have performed or worked EVERY single night. By the end of this week I've found myself legitimately scatterbrained, losing my train of thought without realizing it...it's weird. Having to work that much while trying to deal with all the emotional stuff that keeps happening in my brain takes its toll, I guess. I feel like I'm procrastinating my whole life.
What I just said to a friend about things....I feel like I know exactly what I want, but I can't figure out the right way to get a hold of it.
I think it's time to end this one for now, folks.
Ttfn.
But there's all this other-ness happening beneath the surface.
Oh....Speaking of those words...... Beneath the Surface (Youtube) or Beneath the Surface (Spotify) if you prefer that. That song is....beautiful. Utterly. But it makes me cry. I'm not ready to share the reason why with the whole world at this point, but know that it means a great deal of very deep things to me. However, that's not quite related to this idea of my life being sugarcoated. Just an aside.
If you didn't already assume, by this point in this post, things with Bee ended up flipping around suddenly and unexpectedly on me, so, now we're just friends, because she doesn't feel ready to have a relationship with anyone. Sound familiar? :/
I don't like being bitter. Sometimes I say or do things and immediately realize Wow, I'm acting incredibly bitter right now. That's a shitty attitude. I should lighten up a bit. But then, I really do feel that way, to some extent, so I can't really bring myself to pretend to feel otherwise. Sometimes I do lighten up, and act happy and go along with whatever's happening. But I usually am able to do that by latching on to superficial pleasures that last only a fleeting few moments of time, and have no real meaning to me personally.
So here's an example. I went to a party tonight, for a friend's birthday and sort of for the end of the semester as well. It was a blast. I won at Twister, got to see a lot of people in one place that I don't normally see all together, I think I successfully mingled with all the crowds at some point or another. That felt good. But then after leaving it's like my whole body and soul just experience a general....wumph, downward. Because I realize, although I genuinely had fun and everything, it was still only distracting my mind from my inner turmoils, not solving anything.
I suppose I should clarify that, I am not implying that my friends (who were at that party) do not mean anything to me. I love my friends. I always feel surprised by how much more I realize how amazing they are, at each segment of my life. Shrink was there and although thoroughly inebriated, I think she could instantly tell that there was something lurking behind my smile and outer happiness, because when I was leaving she made sure to tell me she is always there to talk if I need it. For some reason, at that moment, it really meant a lot to me for her to say that.
This has been a little bit all over the place. I have been so incredibly scatterbrained lately. I can't really pinpoint the exact cause of why, though I expect that it is most likely a result of all the things happening in my life, not just one thing. Like, for the past 2 weeks, (sort of excluding the weekend....but not really) I have performed or worked EVERY single night. By the end of this week I've found myself legitimately scatterbrained, losing my train of thought without realizing it...it's weird. Having to work that much while trying to deal with all the emotional stuff that keeps happening in my brain takes its toll, I guess. I feel like I'm procrastinating my whole life.
What I just said to a friend about things....I feel like I know exactly what I want, but I can't figure out the right way to get a hold of it.
I think it's time to end this one for now, folks.
Ttfn.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Excitement! Mystery! Intrigue!
Well, sort of...But I figure it's time to write me up anudder wunna deez.... <--- What? Why did I think it was a good idea to type that way?............
Sooooooooo things have progressed right along with Bee! A part of me was truthfully surprised that things actually started working out. She just seemed like the kind of girl who would've never been interested in me, but here we are!
We have been hanging out pretty regularly for the past...two weeks, ish, or so? I guess more like three weeks. And talking and stuff. And then this past Sunday we went on a real, official, first date :) Just the basics, we went to dinner and a movie, which was totally fine by me. The movie was HYAMASZINGH, and we held hands and it was cute :P (I'm omitting some small details which I might not normally omit, because those of you who don't know who Bee is are not supposed to find out yet, and you might put clues together!).
Well I guess there's not that much else to say about the date itself. It was really really fun and enjoyable, and I am definitely looking forward to our next one (which is tentatively planned at this point). I think things are going to continue proceeding really well, and that makes me really happy :)
She's a really wonderful woman. Ok I picked one feature of her to talk about, just now, so that I don't just suddenly flood this post with a million tiny reasons why she's awesome...haha. Her eyes. They are amazing! I haven't quite gotten a really good close look at them yet, but they are basically a light blue-ish color in the center of the iris, and on the outside they have a darker circle of blue (ish) all the way around! It's so cool. It's like...those spinning spiral pictures that aren't actually spinning...sort of like that but wayyy better. Super super pretty :)
Ok. I shall be done talking for now. Mrrrrrr sleep is dumb....Doctor Whooooooooooooooo! :DDDD
TTFN!
Sooooooooo things have progressed right along with Bee! A part of me was truthfully surprised that things actually started working out. She just seemed like the kind of girl who would've never been interested in me, but here we are!
We have been hanging out pretty regularly for the past...two weeks, ish, or so? I guess more like three weeks. And talking and stuff. And then this past Sunday we went on a real, official, first date :) Just the basics, we went to dinner and a movie, which was totally fine by me. The movie was HYAMASZINGH, and we held hands and it was cute :P (I'm omitting some small details which I might not normally omit, because those of you who don't know who Bee is are not supposed to find out yet, and you might put clues together!).
Well I guess there's not that much else to say about the date itself. It was really really fun and enjoyable, and I am definitely looking forward to our next one (which is tentatively planned at this point). I think things are going to continue proceeding really well, and that makes me really happy :)
She's a really wonderful woman. Ok I picked one feature of her to talk about, just now, so that I don't just suddenly flood this post with a million tiny reasons why she's awesome...haha. Her eyes. They are amazing! I haven't quite gotten a really good close look at them yet, but they are basically a light blue-ish color in the center of the iris, and on the outside they have a darker circle of blue (ish) all the way around! It's so cool. It's like...those spinning spiral pictures that aren't actually spinning...sort of like that but wayyy better. Super super pretty :)
Ok. I shall be done talking for now. Mrrrrrr sleep is dumb....Doctor Whooooooooooooooo! :DDDD
TTFN!
Friday, May 3, 2013
Doctor Who minipiphany
Like that? Minipiphany...Mini-epiphany. I'm brilliant.
Anyway. I just posted a fan comment on a Doctor Who picture in response to someone else with whom I disagreed quite a bit, and as I was explaining my point, I think I just hit home on a huge reason why I like 10 more than 11, and one that has nothing to do with my opinions of Moffat or Matt Smith himself or the writing quality or anything. Just the true character of the 11th Doctor. Here it is.
Both 10 and 11 are very goofy Doctors, albeit in their very own very special ways :P Initially, when I started series 5, I just felt like 11 was an imitation of the goofiness of 10. I tried to chalk it up to poor acting choices, or poor writing choices, etc...but it just always nagged me because it felt weird. Through these 3 series with Matt Smith I have grown much more fond of his Doctor anyway, but that was one thing that never truly settled with me. Now I've figured it out (remember, this is my personal opinion). I think that when 10 is being goofy, it's because that's legitimately in his nature. He just has a goofy personality in general, and he loves to Ooh and Ahh at all the little things in life and he likes to be enveloped in the splendor of the universe. I feel like when 11 is being goofy, it's because he's trying to put on a bit of a facade to others (and possibly to himself) in order to hide all the darkness and sadness inside him. 11 definitely has quirkiness built into his personality, no question. But actual silliness and goofiness...I feel like that is his front that he puts on, because deep down he is just a very troubled man who is not at peace with himself.
I'm not sure if that made entire sense, but it has made me respect the 11th Doctor much more, just because I feel like I understand why he can be so similar to 10, almost to the point of feeling like imitation, but still be so completely different.
:)
TTFN!
Anyway. I just posted a fan comment on a Doctor Who picture in response to someone else with whom I disagreed quite a bit, and as I was explaining my point, I think I just hit home on a huge reason why I like 10 more than 11, and one that has nothing to do with my opinions of Moffat or Matt Smith himself or the writing quality or anything. Just the true character of the 11th Doctor. Here it is.
Both 10 and 11 are very goofy Doctors, albeit in their very own very special ways :P Initially, when I started series 5, I just felt like 11 was an imitation of the goofiness of 10. I tried to chalk it up to poor acting choices, or poor writing choices, etc...but it just always nagged me because it felt weird. Through these 3 series with Matt Smith I have grown much more fond of his Doctor anyway, but that was one thing that never truly settled with me. Now I've figured it out (remember, this is my personal opinion). I think that when 10 is being goofy, it's because that's legitimately in his nature. He just has a goofy personality in general, and he loves to Ooh and Ahh at all the little things in life and he likes to be enveloped in the splendor of the universe. I feel like when 11 is being goofy, it's because he's trying to put on a bit of a facade to others (and possibly to himself) in order to hide all the darkness and sadness inside him. 11 definitely has quirkiness built into his personality, no question. But actual silliness and goofiness...I feel like that is his front that he puts on, because deep down he is just a very troubled man who is not at peace with himself.
I'm not sure if that made entire sense, but it has made me respect the 11th Doctor much more, just because I feel like I understand why he can be so similar to 10, almost to the point of feeling like imitation, but still be so completely different.
:)
TTFN!
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